What if love...

I'm tired of desperately searching for love.

You know what? For once, I'm going to "not care". I'm going to let it go, and I'm not going to let a search for "the one" to define me.

Let me get this straight. I admit that I am a romantic, and this rolls into the belief I have that God has set aside one soul mate for me to be with, to marry, and to start a new life with together.

But regardless of beliefs on destiny and fate, the unceasing search for love is not something that weighs lightly on a man. Certainly not a woman either, although I write from a perspective of what I know.

I want a girl to love. I want someone to treasure and to exalt. I want someone that I can support, as I know she will support me too. I want a best friend who will encourage me to become better every day. I want a woman of God who I can point at and say, "I have no idea how or why I ended up with this amazing girl, but my goodness did God bless me far beyond what I deserved for a partner". She will show me how to love and live. We will be the closest friends who constantly lean on each other for everything, while constantly encouraging one another to press on in this crazy uncontrollable life.

And there is such societal pressure to find this person as quick as possible.

Perhaps it's just me, but it seems that everyone is getting into relationships, getting engaged, or even getting married so quickly. And congrats to those who have found that "one" person...

But I haven't found mine yet.

And although I keep searching, I choose to wait patiently, and not allow society to pressure me into this idea of status, and settling down as soon as possible.

For I would rather be in God's will in my 40s, than to follow my own will in my 20s.

Listen, as I continue to meet new people and grow closer to others, I find people are illusioned by love. Not even love really-- more like an infatuation with the idea of love.

This is why apps like Tinder are so popular (not that it's a bad thing, considering I have used it), why modern music stresses the popularity of the one night stand, why we photoshop every advertisement,

Because it all has to do with a distorted reality of what love truly is.

And what is love? Well that's a hard question to answer. But I'd look at it like this:

To sacrifice oneself for the sake of another, out of loyalty and affection.

Not the best definition, but it works for now.

To demonstrate my love to someone, I would certainly declare to give my life. And this is why the search for "the one" is so appealing. Because, despite common thought, we really truly desire that one person to love, to be dedicated to, to give up everything for.

And that's why I don't want to find just anyone to fall in love with. As a matter of fact, I can't just love anyone. Someday I'll find her, and she'll find me, and I have a good feeling that we'll both know that yes, this is the person we were destined to be with, because it'll all seem to fall into place.